Archive | October, 2009


31 Oct

So about a month ago, I bought the movie Empire Records on eBay. It’s been several weeks, and the movie still hasn’t shipped. I sent a message to the seller about it, and today I got a reply. Turns out a lot of mail that he shipped out (as well as from lots of other people, I’m guessing) got contaminated with mercury, and was destroyed by the post office. Can you believe that? Mercury! That’s just insane. I mean, I didn’t really want a movie that was contaminated with something harmful, but really? That actually happens in real life? Crazy. At least I got a refund, though. I do feel bad for the seller, though, who lost all that stuff he’d shipped and then had to refund everyone’s money. I just have to shake my head about the whole thing. Mercury. Man.



30 Oct

So, it’s been a few days, but there hasn’t been much going on that’s news-worthy. Just the typical routine: get up (usually late), go to work all day, come home and have dinner, work on grad school stuff, organize my iTunes again, talk to Melody, watch TV, stay up way too late, do it all over again. It’s been a fairly uninteresting birthday week, but relaxing enough.

I’m falling way behind on Project 365, but there just haven’t been many things lately that I feel compelled to take pictures of. I have to keep looking out for opportunities to present themselves. And I need to stop thinking about it so much as a chore, and just let the inspiration come to me. It’s typically been that I’ll take a picture just to summarize my day, but I need to get into some more artsy/unique stuff, too. Must be on the lookout for this creativity.

I’m sad to see October go, but I’m excited about Halloween! I have to quit procrastinating on my costume and get it all together, otherwise I won’t look good on Saturday!

Ten Things Tuesday – October 27

27 Oct

Happy birthday to me! Today’s list contains 23 items, in celebration of turning 23 today. It’s an odd number for a list, but it’s the alliteration that counts.

23 random good things about my life:

1. My family has been really supportive of me the past few months. There have been some difficulties in my life lately, and they’ve helped me with them. It’s also really great that they’re so willing to help me out with things like school loans, health insurance, etc. Not to mention that they’re letting me live under their roof again, after living on my own for so long.

2. It’s fall, the best season of the entire year! This one is especially beautiful.

3. I’m so thankful to have a job that I like so much! It took me such a long time to find something, and I’m glad that the wait paid off so well.

4. The best thing I’ve discovered in a long time has been my life saver recently, and that’s Netflix. I love it so much. It’s the most convenient and addicting thing in the world. I’m constantly updating my queue, and I’ve seen so many good movies recently because I signed up for it. It’s the perfect thing for someone like me, who lives to watch the silver screen.

5. I can’t believe how lucky I was that I was able to go to Governor’s School twice – once as a student, and once as a counselor. It truly is a life-changing experience, and just reaffirms my faith in the arts. I met so many amazing people there, as well, that I hope I stay in contact with for a long time.

6. My mom is trying out every recipe in her Paula Deen cookbook, which isn’t doing anything good for my waistline, but doing wonders at the dinner table.

7. My grad school applications are coming along well. I’m gad to have the opportunity to continue my education. Even though I’m not decided about where I want to go, I’m just happy to have the option.

8. Even though my old hard drive is completely dead, I saved all my music, pictures, and documents before this happened. I’m so glad I did, because now that I have a new and improved computer, I didn’t lose anything that would have devasted me.

9. I’m learning not to let things bother me.

10. It’s been a long time since I’ve done anything artsy or creative, but I’m getting back into knitting lately. I bought some great new yarn, and I can’t wait to try it out. I always feel happier when I have some project going on.

11. No matter how old you get, or how late you stay up at night, sleeping in always feels good.

12. I don’t know what I would do without The Beatles in my life. I’d die without their music. Really. I can’t even express how much I love them, and how much they’ve given to me. It’s truly incredible what we, as creative humans, are capable of.

13. I’m so thankful to have found my calling in life. I have no doubt in my mind that I was born to be an art therapist. It’s just such an incredible, interesting, and helpful field. I don’t know where specifically I’ll end up yet, but I know that I’m headed down the right path.

14. Blogging has been so therapeutic for me. Even when I feel like no one else will listen, I can always write. I have an outlet of expression that I never grow tired of. And not only that, but it fulfills my need to make lists all the time.

15. I’ve had some incredible opportunities to travel in the last several years, and I hope this continues. There’s not much I love more than exploring new countries, eating foreign cuisines, and learning a new language. I hope that, the next time I go to Europe, I’ll be fluent in French. I never want to pass up the chance to travel, because it’s just so wonderful. My trips have been life-changing. There’s still so much of the world for me to experience!

16. InStyle is the single greatest magazine I’ve ever laid eyes on. They have the best ideas for fashion, that real women can actually wear. They’re always conscious about finding flattering looks for everyone, no matter where, or who, you are. If I had gone into any sort of media or communications field, I would love to work for them.

17. I’m so glad I have art in my life. I don’t paint nearly as much as I should, but it’s good that I can do it. I should really take advantage of the makeshift studio my dad set up for me.

18. As lame as it sounds, FarmVille is really fun.

19. My mom is making a red velvet cake for me today. This is my all-time favorite.

20. There are a few really great people in my life that are there for me no matter what. I’m so glad to know them, and lucky that they put up with me!

21. I don’t even want to imagine my life without Harry Potter. Or books in general, for that matter. I’ve read some really good ones lately, and I consider myself  lucky that I love reading so much. It’s a good escape from everyday life, and fuels my imagination.

22. I’m lucky that people don’t judge me for loving shoes as much as I do. I have the greatest collection of shoes of anyone I know. I’m such a typical girl, and I just can’t help it. Put a pretty pair of shoes in front of me, and I have a very hard time resisting.

23. I’m glad that my brother and I are getting to be friends now. We’re not especially close, because he tends to stay in his own little world while down at school. He doesn’t share much about his life, but we do get along well. And he does come to be when he really needs me. I hope we can get to be closer in the next few years.

Space Oddity

26 Oct

Recently I have come to terms that I have some space issues. It’s something that I’ve been aware of for a while, but only just now admitted that this is something I need to work on. I say this because I think this has been a source of problems in my life.

I’ve never been one to like the invasion of personal space. I don’t like it when people come into my room and move things around. I don’t like a lot of close physical contact; I definitely have my bubble. But thesee issues go beyond just my personal space and my personal belongings. I just like to know where everything is, and be able to find everything exactly where I left it.

I really don’t like change in my life. I understand that change is inevitable; some are good, some are bad. It’s just something that you can’t avoid. But it’s something I don’t like. Whenever anything changes, no matter how small or large, it always takes me a while to get used to it, and accept what’s happening.

And, as awful as it is to say, I don’t especially enjoy having new people come into my life. Don’t get me wrong, it’s not that I don’t like people. It’s not the fact that meeting new people is challenging and it’s not that I want to limit myself from new and interesting folks. It’s just that this is a type of change, and I don’t like that. I like things to stay exactly the way they are, and this includes the reationships in my life. I know it’s nothing personal, but I find it hard when new people come into the picture and change the dynamics of things. It’s usually not a bad thing, but it’s something that takes me a very long time to get used to. I resist changes so much that it inevitably becomes quite a hindrance. It’s caused more than a fair share of pain and misunderstanding.

More than anything, I favor stability and consistency. And having my space invaded, and having things change so much, disrupts this need. It’s a problem that I’m aware of, and I’m certainly not proud of it. I really need to work on becoming less this way, if anything with the hopes of gaining back what I have lost.


24 Oct

It’s been a fairly eventful weekend around here, compared to my normal life. I worked all day yesterday and today, which was tiring as usual. Tomorrow is another free day, which I know will be completely insane. I’m not really looking forward to it.

Last night I went out to dinner with Kristen, Julia, Julia’s sister Mary, and their friend Melody. After dinner we went out to the corn maze, which was so much fun! It was completely dark by the time we got there (especially being way out in the middle of nowhere, with very little light pollution). The maze was absolutely huge; I hadn’t been there in several years, so I had forgotten just how big it really is. Throughout the maze they had checkpoints where you could get hints about whether to turn right or left. At the start, before you even got into the maze, they had several little quizzes you could pick up, and use the questions to navigate through the maze. It was pretty fun; we picked up seven or eight different quizzes and had fun answering all the questions each time we came to a new checkpoint. We made pretty good time, too, and of course had lots of fun. It felt like I was in the fourth Harry Potter book, going through the maze in the Triwizard Tournament. Being so dark, surrounded by such tall cornstalks, was a little bit eery. It didn’t do anything to sway me from going in, though. At least we didn’t go through the haunted maze!


23 Oct

If I have learned anything of value recently, it is that you should always back up files on your computer, and constantly check it for viruses, spyware, etc. For a long time now, my computer has been acting kind of funny. I blame it on the super-crappy “virus protection” my school made me put on it when I first moved there, four years ago. It didn’t do jack to protect my computer, as now my hard drive is completely shot.

Luckily, my dad is more of a computer whiz that I give him credit for, and he has ordered me a new hard drive and set it all up for me. I’ve been without my computer for about two weeks now while this all gets sorted out. It started with him just checking things out to see what the problems were, and to see if he could fix them. Turns out the damage was beyond repair, and so now I have to start all over. Dad had the forethought to get a backup hard drive, so I’ve stored all my music, pictures, and documents on that. Now comes the very tedious task of loading them on my now larger hard drive. It’s very sad to say that my iTunes history for the past four and a half years is now completey gone. I still have all the files, thank goodness (I’m pretty sure I would slowly waste away from depression if they were lost!), but there is no more playing history, and no more playlists. They’re still stored on my iPod, so my plan is to tediously work my way through each one and replace my playlists again. But it’s still a bit depressing to think that I’ve no longer listened to “Good Night” by The Beatles more than 100 times, and that I have no record of the number of times I’ve listened to John Mayer CDs.

Not that this is my life’s biggest accomplishment, but it’s sad to think that my music listening habits are now completely gone. I’m just still incredibly lucky that we backed up all this stuff before my old hard drive became completely useless. I didn’t lose my resume that I’ve been perfecting for months, and I didn’t lose any pictures (well, not any valuable ones that can’t be replaced), and I now have a completely restored (and refreshed) iTunes. I shouldn’t be too upset about the loss of the small things, because I’m so glad there weren’t any more casualties than this. If all I have to show for this is a brand-new start on iTunes, I think that’s doing pretty well. It’s just still a pain to have to go back and remake all my playlists, though. They were so beautifully organized. Oh well. Such is life.

Most of my free time lately has been spent getting my new hard drive up to the settings of my old one. I’m picky, I know, because I like certain pictures in my screen saver, and I can’t live if I don’t have every file meticulously organized and in its place. This whole computer catastrophe is an organizer’s nightmare. Luckily I already had everthing pretty much set up the way I wanted it, so nothing too major is lost. It’s just a time-consuming thing to replace. Getting everything back up to par also means that Lazy Llama 365 will be getting back on track again soon, so if your life has been incomplete without it, don’t worry. It’s coming.

Let this be a lesson to you all: do not trust your school’s virus proteciton. Be careful what you look at online. Constantly check your computer for harmful issues. And always, always, always back up everything you do not wish to lose in a blaze of violent glory!


22 Oct

I don’t keep track of how many visits I get around here, but I did happen to notice today that, last month, there were exactly 451 visits here at Lazy Llama. That’s the temperature at which books burn.

It always amuses me when there are little ironies like this in life. It just seems like everything is all adding up like it should, and all is well with the universe.